Reflection On My Human Design Chart As A 1/3 Self Projected Projector
Human Design, Unearthing Projectorhood
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My STORY before human design
Before Human Design came into my life, I was a scattered, distressed entrepreneur who had a few health breakdowns in my life thus far. I was self-assured and self-confident with my gifts and mission, but I had no idea how to manage my what-seemed-so-sparingly available energies and resources. It was in entrepreneurship where I witnessed the most significant challenges and observed the most profound shift.
I remember trying so hard to fit into this mold of what I must do to be successful.
I had spent over a year trying hard to be like every other entrepreneur on Instagram/Pinterest. The to-do list, the must-dos, the marketing strategies, the cold DMs, the need to be consistent, the hustle, the need to be on the grind, the manipulative sales tactic that targeted scarcity rather than expansion, keeping up with the Instagram growth algorithm strategies etc… — they were all too overwhelming, cringy and almost contractive in my body. I felt it in my body but was quick to dismiss and ignore it. I remember the days I sat on my chair till 1/2 am in the morning willing myself to finish an article after a 10 hours day of work. I remember priming myself for the 5 am morning routine and failing terribly at it. I remember willing myself to work 15 hours a day by my laptop during the lockdown for I had to be “productive” and convincing myself that this was how all entrepreneurs had to be/begin at one point.
I remember pushing myself to be consistent in the world.
In my personal life, I felt commodified to be part of the system. The 9-5 grind, the just-do-it attitude, the multitasking. Every job I had undertaken, every role and responsibility that I assumed in my profession reiterated the ideology and notion that the more I do and accomplish, the better of a _______ I am. I felt exhausted to keep up with the system. I felt a yearning to understand myself on an energetic level.
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human design as a living tool in my life right now
As of today February 2023, it has been 3+ years since I have been on my de-conditioning journey as a Human Design projector. Every day, I carry an expansive, sovereign and deeply empowering conviction to show up in this world knowing that I am different. I look at the world, our interactions, our connections and each individual through an energetic lens (given permission of course). I have made a conscious commitment to fully step into my projectorhood. This means choosing a life of empowerment, embodiment and experimentation with my energy type, strategy and authority. There are those little moments I’ve ignored them and experienced my not-self and they have become a lesson for me.
I have also deepened my understanding and awareness of how my conditionings and falsehoods may have interfered in my past, but no longer do today. I have overwritten them in my subconscious with new neural pathways. I no longer force myself to hustle or pressure myself to keep up with others. I do not compare myself to other Generator/MGs’s levels of production and pace. I am deeply attuned to my body's wisdom more than I have ever been. Nourishing my physical container and energetic mastery feels like breathing air right now; a non-negotiable. The most apparent of all, I learn to trust myself and my divinity and reclaimed my power the many times I have given it away. Human Design is a powerful living tool in my life right now.
As a Human Design Reader, my sessions run very intuitively and vary for each individual client. However, it usually offers a deep overview of one’s energy type, authority, definition, profile, not self, signature and defined/undefined centers. I also share whatever stands out in one’s body graph : channels, variables, hanging gates in simple split definition, one activated gate in an undefined center, completely open centers, and much more, etc.
Below are the brief reflections on myself as a 1/3 Self-Projected Projector.
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MY ENERGY TYPE: PROJECTOR, STRATEGY AND BITTERNESS
Our energy type reveals how you best utilize your energy in a specific way.
Our strategy governs how we best interact with the world.
A projector not-self bitterness is a telltale emotion to cross-correct, refine, and review what may not be working out.
Knowing I was a projector was a huge thing for me. Validating almost feels like an understatement. It felt like I have finally understood why things were as they were of a struggle in my past. It occurred to me then that I had spent the past 28 years of my life trying to live out the design of someone else, fitting myself into the mold of who I was conditioned to be. I have been living my life trying to be a combination of a Manifesting Generator and a Manifestor. Knowing that the gift of deep-seeing the other as a projector lies in our largely undefined centers allows me to understand why others always feel deeply seen and comforted in my aura. Knowing why I innately held a preference for a smaller group setting and thrive in a 1:1 when holding space makes more sense now. To wait for the invitation refined the way I engage my energy with the world as most of my bitterness in my past was attributed when I initiated and/or share things prematurely before any invitations.
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MY SELF-PROJECTED AUTHORITY AND SINGLE DEFINITION
Our authority shapes the way we make the best decisions with our energetic configuration.
Our definition governs the way we relate and connects to one another. It also provides glimpses into how we process things in life.
As an individual with a self-projected authority, it means my clarity comes from my G center, which is the center of identity, direction, self-love and purpose. My process of arriving at clarity is about honoring them.
I used to be someone who would give the power of decision-making over my mind and seek external reliance and support rather than trusting my deeper knowing. I had a phase in my life where I have given that same power for validation and comfort to guides, advisors, readers and psychics. Understanding I am someone who instinctively speaks my truth ( G center and throat defined) brought me much clarity as I have always been an individual with a deep knowing of my purpose and my path. One of the methods of refining and cultivating my authority is asking for a trusted and clean sounding board aka a compassionate listener, a person who is here to purely listen, hold space and reflect.
Before I learned about my Human Design, I have already noticed that the answer I was looking for are in the very words of what come out of my mouth. My sounding board friend will also remind me what my tone sounded like- excited, energized, uncertain, unbothered etc.
Cultivating an unwavering sense of trust and deeper knowing has been a journey. Very often now, I rely less on my sounding boards and more on my G Center and my deeper knowing.
As a single-definition individual, I do realize that I process information faster than most peers of mine. I also always consider myself someone who is rather independent and self-contained. I enjoy socializing but being in my own space and aura entices me more. I also really dig solo travels and derive a lot of fulfillment.
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MY 1/3 PROFILE
Our profile governs our personality in Human Design.
Out of the 6 profile lines in Human Design, I heavily identify as line 1 and line 3. I am definitely someone who is naturally curious and enjoys researching, studying, reading, and diving into the rabbit hole of a subject I find fascinating. It is important for me to build the foundation of what I wish to establish mastery in. I view education as never-ending and a part of our evolution to be constantly expanding and growing. It is very often that I consciously (mental) study the people around me, their music taste, their behaviors, and their body language, but with permission of course.
As a line 3, I do admit that I am rather accident-prone and have had a fair share of experimentation and experience in love, health, career, and relationships in my 30 years of life. They have equipped me with only much more resiliency, wisdom and adaptation. “ I have been there…” is a common phrase of mine.
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DEFINED G CENTER AND THROAT CENTER
Understanding I am someone who instinctively speaks my truth ( G center and throat defined) brought me much affirmation as I have always been an individual with a deep knowing of my purpose and my path. However, one can always be the most vulnerable to criticism too. I do observe that when I do speak my truth and it isn’t ready to be heard, and being subjected to criticism, I feel deeply hurt.
As a G center and throat defined, in the lowest expression, sometimes our words, statements, and remarks can often come across as really blunt, straightforward and sometimes hurtful to the other. Especially when it is uninvited and shared prematurely with others, it is important always to practice restraint and remind oneself to stick with our strategy. It is also important to realize that some people are not ready to hear this truth because it is not in their journey at the moment. As with being a projector, timing is really important.
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UNDEFINED HEAD AND AJNA CENTER
As an undefined head center, I am extremely open to all sorts of ideas, and inspirations, dependent on my environment and who I am with. Sometimes, when I am unconscious, I may adopt these ideas/inspirations as mine and feel compelled to act on them to relieve the pressure/doubt/confusion. For that reason, I am extremely discerning with how I consume information physically, and socially, and whom I spend time with.
My undefined ajna also makes me a very open-minded individual. However, I do observe myself falling into the traps of a worrywart when I amplify and absorb others’ mental activity, feeling compelled to over-rationalize, over-analyze, and make sense of doubts and find certainty. I am still working on learning to detach from others’ mental activity, not adopting theirs as mine, and embracing uncertainty.
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Zero-Defined Motor Centers
As a classic projector, none of my motor centers ( solar plexus, root, sacral, ego) are defined and my definitions only lie below my ajna center. With zero defined motor centers, I am equipped with lesser energy as I do not have these “extra” motorized specific resources. Rest is extremely important to me. I also do notice that I have grown to be very discerning with ensuring that I do not confuse my defined centers and others’ borrowed, adopted energies as my own. Taking time to decompress and recharge in my own space has been extremely helpful.
Are you also a self-projected projector too? Does the above resonate with you?
Our journey of experimentation, empowerment and embodiment in unearthing our projectorhood is a journey back to ourselves.
I have designed my free resource, “Projector’s 3 Agents of Change Guidebook” to support projectors like you in becoming and feeling empowered as we decondition and embark on our projectorhood journey. In this 30+ page toolkit, I share my tried and tested ( line 3 here) personal in depth-expansive practices to assist you in activating your projector divinity today. Read more about it here.
If you are looking for something physical and tangible to support you in your deconditioning and projectorhood journey, my Your Companion 2024 Planner is the world’s first-ever Human Design energy type specific planner. It is currently available only for Human Design projectors. Besides being a year, month and weekly planner, it contains a comprehensive guide about Human Design catered to projectors with a focus on practical integration and embodiment.
It is suitable for any Human Design projectors who are at the beginning of their de-conditioning journey or have been in their experiment for a while. It is designed to instill self-accountability and empowerment for one to take practical actions toward a life of authenticity, fulfillment, ease and Projector success. Read more about it here.
Lastly, if you feel called to engage in my frequency and have an in-depth Becoming Empowered Human Design session or a Projectorhood Uplevel Session, do get in touch with me here.
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Click below for other “Unearthing Projectorhood” resources:
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Staying In The Familiar As A Projector
And I hope you will always remember that you can begin today. All my love. Sat Nam.
Sylvia
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I am Sylvia— the founder, writer and human design reader of Arawme. “Arawme” is basically, a raw me put together.
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